> despite that fact he was left more alone than any man in history, locked about the dark side of the moon, wondering if he was going home alone
He actually didn't mind being on the dark side of the moon.
"'I was not lonely,' Collins said at an Explorer's Club event in New York City earlier this year, 'I had a happy little home in the command module. Behind the moon it was very peaceful — no one in Mission Control is yakkin' at me and wanting me to do this, that, and the other. So I was very happy, it was a happy home.'" [0]
He actually didn't mind being on the dark side of the moon.
"'I was not lonely,' Collins said at an Explorer's Club event in New York City earlier this year, 'I had a happy little home in the command module. Behind the moon it was very peaceful — no one in Mission Control is yakkin' at me and wanting me to do this, that, and the other. So I was very happy, it was a happy home.'" [0]
https://www.space.com/michael-collins-remembers-apollo-11-mo...