sorry for your losses, and thank you sincerely (as much as possible in a platform like this) from the bottom of my heart.
I didn't go through the scale of grief as you've done, sorry for acting selfish and wanting to share some of my stuff. I went through a divorce and now having a similar "i love you" challenge with the woman in my life. she thinks it is a really big thing and holds her back, so I'm stressed and am also trying to hold myself. but it's just three words and also almost all love dies, like all people. I'm also kind of a crying person, it helps me a lot but people treat it as kind of a weakness.
I simply don't get the ways of the modern world more and more, and I feel old. but I don't think I will try to change myself. not in this sense at least.
my small family's health and happiness above all. first, second and third most important learning.
if i feel i need to resign, i need to resign immediately.
job hunt is never easy. recruitment process is shit in most companies, almost in all startups. self-motivation is most important.
stop depending on external verification.
sleep & wake at the same time, spend some time outdoors early in the day, take a look at the sky, smile at the people in subway, say "bless you" when they sneeze. smile especially when you feel bad about the work, smile when the others don't smile, help people.
stop wasting stupid money, save and spend on what will make the family feel better.
berlin, its startups and founders are overrated. still there are some that shine.
i second this. having finished my studies in 2009 and worked at corporate + startup, I couldn't help but laugh when an HR lady asked for my diploma scan. she took a step back when i simply emailed "are you sure you need this?".
health is yes cheap and problematic. it is not a full "health heaven" when you can't get any specialist appointment within 4 weeks. at least in berlin. same "termin" bulls* is valid for almost all services. i would rather pay more and get faster service.
and if you are not german or eu citizen, second part is also not valid. so qualified immigrants can't feel secure here. so berlin is a stop for me until i find some better place, not a city to settle in with my family and future kids.
duolingo is much better in browser than mobile. there it has course summaries, tables, etc. meanwhile, i think it focuses too much on vocabulary. instead it should be daily dialogue driven.
retail type of bullshit, literally. stuffing all the sale into a single day when none of the physical or non-physical systems are designed or implemented to meet such peak demand. my current company does everything to eliminate such peaks, which makes sense considering customer satisfaction (service quality) and cost efficiency, and some guys like alibaba doing the opposite. nothing but marketing scam, prices getting bloated in the day before and discounts(?) exclusive to 11.11.
I didn't go through the scale of grief as you've done, sorry for acting selfish and wanting to share some of my stuff. I went through a divorce and now having a similar "i love you" challenge with the woman in my life. she thinks it is a really big thing and holds her back, so I'm stressed and am also trying to hold myself. but it's just three words and also almost all love dies, like all people. I'm also kind of a crying person, it helps me a lot but people treat it as kind of a weakness.
I simply don't get the ways of the modern world more and more, and I feel old. but I don't think I will try to change myself. not in this sense at least.